Sicky

I am a pretty big complainer most of the time when I am sick.  Have been pretty good this time and have mostly not complained.  But here is what I do want to complain about - it is about how I let myself sometimes turn into a giant lump when I am sick.  A single day of taking it easy to recover leads into a second day of no activity even if I am feeling a bit better.  So today I got myself out for a short walk (and got myself scared half to death by a big dog).  So I am glad I got myself moving at least a little bit today. Although I do admit that now it just makes me want to take a nap - I think I will go and do that.

Delicious Veggie Supper

I admit I am a pretty dedicated carnivore.  I love to have meat with my supper especially.  But last night I was feeling a bit vegetarian.  I stopped at the grocery store on the way home to pick up ingredients - but then once home wasn't feeling like cooking.  But thankfully nothing in the phone book to order looked appealing to me (guess I didn't want to undo my super workout from the morning - pilates followed by piloxing and preceded by a 20 minute walk).

So I used some olive oil and cooked up some onions, then I added in some red lentils and some little tiny black lentils that I had only had time to soak briefly.  Then some chickpeas and a lot of curry powder and one bouillon cube (which was even vegetarian).  I cooked that up adding more water as necessary for about 20 minutes or so until the black lentils were mostly cooked.  Then I scooped that mix into the two halves of a spaghetti squash and baked it for a half an hour.  It was delicious and very reasonable in the points department.

Strange Days!

So the last couple days my brain is all over the place.  Whether it is comparing my day to being a pirate on talk like a pirate day, or today speculating on what draws people to the vampire concept.  But it is funny, this whole process of being on Weight Watchers and working on building up my fitness means that even when I am wondering about odd things like that the recurring part of the theme is always either food or fitness LOL.  Guess it just goes to show where my head is at - all over the place in one respect, but firmly anchored in another respect.  I like that little bit of paradox!

So I just heard from some people that they want to start a WW meeting at work.  That would be great since I am just about at that point where I was thinking of joining up for meetings so I could get a few of the goodies and the lifetime thing!  If it ends up going ahead I suspect it will mean some degree of change in my way of approaching this, and hopefully a good one.  Hopefully it will mean an opportunity for me to share this journey first hand with people and see them on theirs in person. Who knows maybe it will mean I will have a real chance to make a difference in the journey for someone else!

Realization

I am just doing a little reflecting back on my post from yesterday and I see that whole line of thinking being so dominant in my mind yesterday was probably a protection mechanism.  I know this week I have been making pretty poor choices food wise and was expecting it to come back at me when it was time for the scale.  So I suspect all that extra thinking about not wanting to lose was an insulation method.  Protecting myself against what I expected was coming.

Now with that said, I do still want to slow my loss rate down in order to give my skin time to catch up. And I do still think I am going to slightly up my number of points I am using regularly in a week (probably with some protein shakes or something like that for after workouts).  But I am going to still aim for overall a continued loss pattern.

Thoughts and fears about just maintaining

So the last little while I have really started to see a big change in some parts of my body.  I am not terribly happy with how my skin is doing.  I feel like it is just looking not great and I worry that is a result of losing more quickly than the skin can handle. Which has had me seriously contemplating pausing in maintenance mode for a month or so.  But I worry a little bit that if I do take a pause in the weight loss process that I will have troubles getting back on track once I have given myself that bit of time.  I have seen too many great people I have met on the WW site who seem to have had something that got them off track and I never saw them again.

It is not that I am proposing stopping the program all together and I would definitely still be working out and getting in lots of activity and still be active on the site, but I just wouldn't be aiming at weight loss during the time period.  To me it sounds fine in theory, but I am concerned there is some nefarious deep subconscious saboteur lurking in there somewhere.  Maybe I should tweak my idea a bit and aim for slowed losses - I think I could easily do that just by regularly getting through all of my weekly points a bit more regularly (adding in a protein shake after a workout would get me through some of them for sure while also doing some good for my muscles).

Okay so you see the odd discussion process that goes on in my brain LOL.  There it is in action, talking myself into and out of a plan and instead looking for something that might compromise between the current and a significant change.  Will have to see whether that strategy does a good job at steadying out my pace a little bit.

Tardy Pictures and Piloxing

Well here is the latest picture.  I am finding it harder to post them now LOL - I actually find myself more critical now and not seeing as much month to month change as I used to see.  But no more excuses - here is the pic (please ignore the stains on the shirt - I just can't seem to get them out of the darn thing!). Click the picture to see a full sized version of it.

So enough about the picture.  Today I went to piloxing class (second time).  I love having the gloves - I thought it would make it harder but it doesn't really and definitely does add a bit of crispness to the moves for me.  I am sure looking forward to doing it weekly!  Yay to Lead Pilates for offering this and all their other fantastic classes! 

Okay adding this pic in here because I can't figure out how else to make it available for another purpose LOL.

Back on here!

Well I have been severely slacking on keeping up this blog.  With blogging on the Lead Pilates site and the WW message boards I have been neglecting this.  But there is also another worse time waster that has raised it's head - an online game.  They really are such a big weakness of mine.  And I will just sit and play one for hours and hours.  Hours I could certainly be spending much more productively!  But I am in the process of weaning myself off the one I am currently playing.  I will play one more round of it with a couple folks I met while playing a different round.  Thankfully on this game the rounds are relatively quick at around a 2 to 3 week turn around time.  This is great compared to some other games I have played with much longer play times.

So I have been getting back into Pilates after having been out of town for most of a three weeks and missing it quite a bit.  This upcoming week I am trying out a bunch of different stuff at the studio -should be quite interesting to see how some of them go since I haven't done one of the classes before, and the others it has been a while.

Now just a small bit of good news - my wii fit has finally signalled to me that I am out of the obese category and into the overweight category.  But I have been wondering if my height is actually correct in there since I didn't have a measuring tape at the time I entered it.  So perhaps I was out of that category a while ago and just didn't realize it. Or maybe I am a long ways away from it if the height I entered was too tall LOL.  Regardless though I definitely feel like I haven't been obese for a while now!

Oh here are my last set of short term goals and how I did - so I can put up some new ones!

Fitness Goals

Goal	Improve my Cardio Ability
Target Date	August 11
Progress/ Comments	I am going to work on getting to 6 minutes out of 20 on the treadmill at running speed (4.7) *** I did better than this doing closer to 9 minutes at 4.8 to 5 so I did pretty good I think!

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Food/Eating Goals

Goal	Try new things
Target Date	August 11
Progress/ Comments	Just going to try to get in some new things into the routine - try something I haven't tried before at least a couple times each week. ***Didn't do great on this, surprised at myself at how little I innovated!